Beautiful. Bold. Black. -by SugaHoneyTeash

I Need to Know I’m Beautiful

I need to know I’m beautiful

I need to know it when I wake up in the morning with crust on my eye and drool on my cheek.

I need to know it when my hair is a mess and my eyebrows ain’t on fleek.

I need to know it when I made yet another mistake that I cannot undo.

And I need to know it for myself cause this here beauty, is for me, not you.

Beautiful
Amara La Negra

I’m not talking about the beauty that is strictly glitz-n-glamor, I’m talking the gritty shit that built my character.

I’m talking ‘bout the pain ‘I’ endured that created morals and the reason why I’m so Goddamn Loyal

I need to know this beauty so it runs through my veins because I need it as confidence when I’m in pain.

I need it as armor when I walk in through that fucking office ‘cause them white muthafucka’s have a hard time seeing what I’m offerin’

As a black woman, I’m tired if doing it all by myself but it’s hard to depend on someone else when they can’t see your beauty like you see it in yourself.

Beautiful
Issa Rae

I need to see it when no one else can, ‘cause I be damned if I let someone else paint a portrait of who I am.

I need to know my beauty so it infuses with my soul, ‘cause that piece has been missing and it’s time to take control.

 

**Inspired by my beautiful black sister-friend Erika, I love you E!**

Teash & E

IG: sugahunyice_tee

Potentially Powerful

Young women, it is not your duty to rescue him. Young lady, it is not your duty to rescue him!

Hey girl… it is not your duty to rescue him.

There is potential in almost everyone that you meet. Almost everyone has the potential to be great and do positive things on any different level in life but this does not mean that you will be around to witness it let alone be the one to lead anyone to it. Especially a man. Why are you still waiting on potential? Girl let me tell you how much time I’ve wasted waiting around for a man to realize his potential and change up. I can tell you, and you’ll still waste your time because that’s just the way that faith works. Your belief in that man’s potential could be used in another area of your life, but who am I to tell you what to do? I see the potential in you too but am I going to lead you there?

Maybe so, likely not. Take a step back and revisit that.

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For those who believe in a higher power: Trust and know that you are being tested. Have you not learned from your own lessons in life that it is necessary for tough (and easy or medium) lessons to take place in order to cause the needed transformation in a being? Have you not learned to understand karma and its ways? Just to let you know, when you do bad, that bad can be done unto you or someone close to you, when you do good that good can be done unto you or someone close to you; when you play God, you will be taught that you are mortal; when you block a learning lesson in someone’s life, you will be forced to learn a new one in yours… do you understand this? There may be more to it, but did you understand that? Stop trying to control things that are out of your control. Especially the potential in men. Just as you are learning, so is he. Just as you must learn one thing from this person and the next thing from the next person, so must he. Just as you are destined for this thing and he is destined for that. This is life. It was designed and created for you before you were even granted life as a gift. Do you understand that there is someone (something) guiding you to where you need to be just as he/she (it) is doing the same for him?

If so, why are you still waiting on potential? Take a step back and revisit that.

 

For those who believe they are the higher power: Girl, you have a mighty power in this world, a way with words, maybe your aura has changed peoples’ energy around you, maybe your smile lights up the room, maybe you even walk on water and maybe you bleed gold. One thing you are not capable of is leading a man to his destiny. Being that you have embraced your power, whatever led you to that is most likely doing the same work in him. It is going to be the man who raises himself up and determines what his future will be. Not you. Do not wait around while he drains you of your power, to empower his.

Sis, why are you still waiting on potential? Take a step back and revisit that.

 

For those who believe in nothing: If you believe in nothing then why is it that you believe he even has potential?

Why are you still waiting on something you do not believe in? Take a step back and revisit that.

 

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For those who love metaphors: Imagine you are in the middle of the ocean. Stuck and treading water. You see a ship out about 1,200 feet or so away. A buoy rocking in the ocean 1,900 feet away. An island 1,400 feet away. Are you swimming to the ship, the buoy or the island?

The ship is the man you want to be with (the man of your dreams, the one with the potential), the buoy is your backup or go-to, and the island is your deepest self. I’ll ask again, are you swimming to the ship, the buoy or the island? Be honest.

Sure, you could take your chance at attempting to swim over to the ship but the ship is also sailing, how fast can you swim? Is the ship captain going to notice or see you in the water? How many sharks are in the water? What’s the tide like? Is the wake going to drown you? How salty is the salt water? How thirsty and tired are you? How strong is your will to get to that ship regardless of what is thrown your way? Just a few things to think about before you attempt at swimming towards that ship.

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Now, regarding the buoy, it is close. Looks safe because you’ll be out of the water and able to rest your limbs for a little while, you may even feel safe from whatever it is in the water but the buoy is temporary. How hot is it outside? Is the buoy large enough to ensure that you are protected from whatever lurks in the water? Could you fall asleep on the buoy and not drown to death in your sleep? Is there something else occupying the buoy? Just a few things to consider before you decide to settle on the buoy.

 

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Now, the island, the island is far right? I agree, but if you originally chose to attempt at catching that ship… is it really that far? Are you willing to put in the same effort to get to that island that you would’ve put in to get to that ship? Are you willing to take the chance, the same chance you were willing to take hopping onto that buoy? Do you have faith and see the potential in what may occur when you make it to the island, explore it and rest upon it?

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Why are you still waiting on the potential you see in other’s when it is your potential that needs your faith? Take a step back and revisit that.

 

 

*This piece was inspired by a conversation with my mentee ‘MvdiFv’

Happy Birthday Jesus! (12/25/16)

O Heavenly Father hallowed be thy name and the Savior of all hath won the game.

Playing for keeps of the souls of mankind, although written in will some will be left behind.

You gave yourself to God to be sacrificed for our sins and while we fight worldly ways you wish us to win.

Today is your birthday and we all celebrate with fellowship, giving, thankfulness and grace.

Together with our family and loved ones turning a blind eye to the hate, that has consumed the world around us but no one will debate.

Happy Birthday Jesus! I shout from my lungs. Giving praise unto you with the lyrics I have sung.

While naysayers declare today is not the actual day of your birth, all that matters to me is the compassion and forgiveness you’ve shown us on Earth.

Happy Birthday Jesus! I say to myself, alone and whining about the distance between my family and why I am never home.

Even on your birthday do you still continue your work in me ensuring that the wounds are healed and continuously easing hurt.

Even on your birthday do you continue to challenge faiths and because of that I am forever thankful to be filled with your grace.

Happy Birthday Jesus!

Death to Deceit

I’m not the one you play Bob the Builder with because I keep a tool kit,

And when I cock back I empty a full clip just to prove that what I said wasn’t bullshit.

We’ve all felt that pain, we’ve all been there, we survived so you’ll be aiight.

Just don’t come ’round these parts with the drama ’cause you can’t sleep at night.

We exchange frequencies when I give your man love and motivation,

I push him past his limits, unlike you gassing mediocrity up like a station.

Inside me I can feel the changes, it looks like I have my mojo back

Brushed passed the cock-block and I feel my heart beat slow, it’s on full attack.

I must confess that I have no idea when love became so elusive

but it has been made clear that it is only his that is exclusive.

You know, Murder is a sin. Murder is a Sin. Murder. Is. A. Sin.

So what exactly is the punishment for killing someone within?

Much like you, I’ve broken down walls only to rebuild them again and again,

Looking deep into the mirror only to find that I’m looking more like men.

Hands steady, always at the gun range aimlessly hitting every target I see,

Keeping them at bay with warning shots so they cannot view the dead body.

I was in your corner. And she pushed me out of the window, then locked every door.

Outside, in the cold I sat on the curb with no umbrella enduring thunderstorms.

Eventually I ran in the rain but slipped and tumbled into the street,

I fell so hard, so fast but still ended up on my knees at his feet.

We have all been there hun, and some of us were on the inside.

“Murder is a sin”, he said, “Beautiful girl, don’t ever let them see you cry.”

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